the scene changes, rearranges.

ah yesterday....it was a big day in my life....and i'm not sure how i feel about it.

firstly, last day of classes. EVER. and it was illustration. and my teacher still managed to be a giant douche. 15 weeks straight of pure douchery. but i typed up my evaluation of him earlier in the semester so i made sure to have it printed out and i slid that bitch into the folder. it was good closure. my projects came out a little bit better than i expected, and well, quite frankly, i just need a D- to pass. and i've never been one to settle for such a low grade. but that class pretty much sucked the life out of me and i hated every single second i was in there....minus all the amazing conversations i had with kirk and nate. thank the lord they were in that class because i really would have died without them. my summer project is to retrieve all my saved chat logs with them and creating a blurb book. it's going to be so freaking amazing. probably better than the actual work i produced in the class. haha. after grades are posted, i'll be sure to post that evaluation. ya never know what people will find on the internet....

oh, and i accepted a job offer at MH [or technically UA], so it looks like i'll be staying around for a little bit longer. but its ok because i'm not really ready to leave my friends behind because they're so amazing. i would die a little inside if i couldn't have them in my life. and i know we're all growing up or whatever and have busy schedules but it'll be easier to plan thing when i only live 15 miles away instead of 500. i'm a little nervous. and by little, i mean a LOT nervous. shelley's last day in the office is may 16, so that means i'll basically be handling most of what goes on in the office and that makes me terrified. especially because everything is also done so ass backwards and 27 people always get involved when it can be taken care of with like 4 and the busy season is approaching and it's just going to be nuts. and i'll be salary, so no overtime for this girl. i do however, get 13 days PTO and according to my mom, all of my health/dental/vision benefits are really good. and lord knows i'll need them. and i know i bitch a lot about my job, but i really am grateful to have a job with a very good salary for an entry level designer straight out of college, especially because some of my friends aren't as lucky. and 2 years ago, when i was thinking about the job market, i was expecting to be making about 14K less than i am. so i know i'll be able to at least live comfortably.

And....finally bought my cap and gown yesterday. so this whole graduation thing is so for real right now, it's apeshit crazy. and my tassle is brown. like, dog shit brown. whoever decided to give the creative people a brown tassle should eat shit. because i wanted something cool and vibrant like crimson or magenta or orange or something other than BROWN.

in less than 7 days i'll be an alum. god help me now. my oh so pathetic life is about to begin. i'm trying to think of really cool things i want to do this summer, which i'll probably inevitably be doing alone, because thats the story of my life [and everyone else has their boyfriends/dates to be with]...but i think that way if i have cool stuff to do on the weekends, it'll help the work week go better when i have something to look forward to. a brief rundown of what i can think of right now that i want to do[weekend ideas and other random things to make me not want to kill myself]:
- an over night white water rafting trip.
- a day at cedar point
- camping for a weekend with a big group of people
- learn to golf...or at least try out a driving range
- sky dive
- learn about the stock market and start investing my money [exciting, i know]
- get some real freelance work
- go on nice 3 or 4 vacation...like to vegas again or maybe a cruise.
- weekend trips to visit my siblings in all of their locations [colorado, NYC, grand rapids] and a better attempt at seeing craig and jen because they live so close, even if it's just meeting up for dinner after work or something simple like that.
- look into finding a personal trainer because i think thats my only solution at this point.
- learn to cook better food than just eating a can of soup or lean cuisines and shit like that.
- i need to seriously figure out how to meet straight single men. i'm not into the whole marriage idea [because i want to be able to do the things i want to do, or just anything that i've observed for the last 22 years of what happens when you get married,etc] and definitely NO children ever. but i'm thinking i want more than a cat to come home to every night.

i wish the rain would go away....but i'm thinking tonight is going to be AMAZING regardless. i'm going to be paparazzi so it'll be fun. i need all the pictures i can get to remember the last house party i'll attend as a college student. oh my god, i'm getting pathetic again...