keeping cups on my desk has ruined my life.

ot always seriously creeps me out when i see a postcard i could have posted myself. i wish someone could give be reason to believe otherwise:

i honestly haven't felt more hatred for my dad as i recently have, as of the last week. especially when i found out from my sister that my mom wanted to move out-- thats when i wanted to shank him most. and thats why i refuse to let down my walls and ever think that marriage is a thing for me-- because i dont want to be like my mom. i will ALWAYS be able to do what i want, go where i want, buy what i want...because i will NOT be controlled by a man.

uuuuuuuugh. i hate my life. also, i spilled water on my computer keyboard 2 days ago because i'm fucking retarded and probably wont have my nice macbook back for a week or two while it's getting fixed, so i'm subjected to shitty PC's while i'm home....and i wouldn't dare blog from work on my beautiful $5000 machine.

i know i shouldn't complain because nothing bad ever happens in my life...but i wish something really good happened. even if it was something like, once in ten years something good happens. i feel like i've been waiting 22 years for that something...

...and people wonder why i've given up on humanity.....