looking for something to help me burn out bright.

three, count 'em, THREE weeks of school left!!! but i still need to start (and finish) my entire website. and my packaging design project. and a good chunk of my illustration book. but i've basically shut down FOREVER, so it should be interesting to see how it all comes together in the end. the senior exhibition is on the 25th, which would be WAY more exciting if the invitation wasn't so shitty. seriously, you could probably piss something prettier in the snow. i have issues with the way the faculty seem to be handling a lot of things these days. but there's really nothing that i can do about it at this point, so i'll just suck up and deal with it these next 19 days. but seriously though, i'm so over it all. at this point, what i have left in my classes is such a waste of time. well, illustration was a GIANT waste of time from the very beginning....but now everything is just so close to being done with that i have a really hard time caring.

my interview went well in NYC, so now i'm just anxiously waiting to see if they want me. i sent out my thank you cards today, so hopefully those will make a good final impression of me. i went out there kind of just taking a risk, but now i really really really want to move out there and do the nyc life kind of thing. i felt so confident walking the streets in my business wear and just knowing where i was and what i was doing....and i NEVER feel confident, so that should say something about itself right there. it felt good to be able to do that. it just felt right. if its meant to be, its meant to be. not gonna lie, i'll be a little bummed if things don't work out....not necessarily that i didn't get that particular job, but that i'll still be at MH. it seems to be sucking the life out of me a little bit more every time i'm there. and then to know i wont be hired full time because of all the budget problems and UA being a stupid company makes me hate it even more. and then i found out today that they're restructuring the entire marketing department companywide...and i dont even know what that means.

when i saw this, i immediately said to myself, "THATS WHAT SHE SAID!!" haha.

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