i dont know what's wrong with me, but i have been feeling so worn down lately. this week kicked my ass. i just want to lay around and do nothing all the time. i wonder if i'm starting to get sick. david got me all scared about getting sick at work because things go around and spread like the plague. and my desk is right under the vent in my office, so i'll be taking daily germ showers because the ventilation system is really bad at work. not that i ever needed help getting sick to begin with, but this year should be worse. super duper. i should have gotten that flu shot they were handing out last week at work. oh well.
i saw my parents today for the first time since july. i really do miss them a whole lot more than i ever thought i would. i enjoy their company. and they seem a lot happier now that all the kids are finally out of the house. my mom seemed like she was glowing today. i'm happy for them...and i'd be even happier if their house would sell. apparently no one needs a 4 bedroom house with no grass to mow in a run down city that has nothing good left in it. eh, it'll all be ok in the end i suppose.
so, i've been doing a lot of driving lately...so i've had lots of time to think. and i think i want to start going to church again. i dunno...i just feel like i'm missing something in my life...and alcohol doesn't really fill the void anymore. and i don't believe in love [not that i'd ever actually find love anyways] so i think i might start going. who knows though, i reeeeally value my sleep on sunday mornings. it's just a thought at least.
i've been feeling really pessimistic lately, which is kind of weird. i think it's the weather....the fall makes me feel gloomy even though i don't really have anything to be gloomy about.
dane cook is tonight.....i hope it's as fun as it was 3 years ago. and then we're going out in cleveland....i really hope thats fun because i'm not really looking forward to it.
death cab for cutie is perfect fall weather music. also, the new angels and airwaves cd is pretty decent, although i need to listen to it more.
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